Lacey Says This...

What would Gidget do?
Its sometimes something I ask myself in a situation where I am overwhelmed with life.

I sat alone in the back of work crying my eyes out today. I thought about everything and as the pit of my stomach ached and I felt like I was going to vomit the most vile of blood.. I asked myself what Gidget would say to me right now.

Everyone has a guardian angel. Some people never think about theirs. Some people lose a family member or a friend and hope they will forever be close by. Gidget is my angel.
After he died I had dreams where he would come speak to me.
When I was in my heaviest of drug use, he use to visit me and tell me to knock it off. It was weird at first. I would think how strange it was that he would be in all my dreams.
And the one day it stopped. And I found I missed our visits.

It feels good to know he is always looking out for me.

So today I asked myself what he would think. What he would say to me right now.
I can recap on some of the funny things he use to say to make me feel better, like

"Ex's are hexes waiting to happen"

Or

"Just smile,baby, cause we can"

He always had something silly to tell me. Some story he could relate to and tell me to help out.
I wished he was here now, and then I remembered he was.

In this midst of my tears, I knew the answer.
But it didn't come from gidget.. It came from my own motto...

"Hand it all over to the universe. Whatever will be, shall be."

And somehow I knew he would have agreed with me.